So I made a pretty ambitious post last time, listing off all the things I want to get done this year. I entered the year full of hope that things would start falling into the right places and with a resolution of maybe starting to get a bit of recognition.
Last year around this time, I got the news that I would be losing most of my body of work and a valuable team member. It threw me off quite a bit and messed with my moral.
This year I didn't have school to distract me, I have two very large projects that are going to help me move forward. But if I'm being honest here, I've gotten off to a horrible start. I've been on a job search for a while now. But so far I've been able to avoid applying to places that would make me want to swallow bullets. But I've been running bone dry when it comes to money, that was bad enough to make it where the need for a job was desperate. But a couple days ago, I got in a car accident, which shredded the right side of my car, totaling it and this whole situation is going to raise the living balls out of my insurance that I already couldn't afford along with everything else that comes with this situation. I've been on edge for the past several months now, I've been losing my motivation to do anything in an off and on manner, but I've steadily made it through. Now with every little aspect of my life that I completely loath, I can pile all of these things on. I don't have a vehicle, I'm out a lot of money that I don't have and any job I can get now is going to be complete and utter shit.
I wish that I could just wake up one day with an e-mail sitting in my inbox saying, "You know what kid, you've got something and we recognize that. Here's a shit load of money for you to make something awesome and leave that shit life you have now. Fix all your little problems, tell what ever boss you have to eat a dick and finally get on the right track to achieving all of your goals."
But no. These things don't happen. You've gotta work your fingers to the bone while trying to not lose sight of what's important. This. All of this. My work. It's the only thing that matters. It's my legacy. On my own, I don't matter. I'm just some guy. It's what I leave behind that matters and I'm just hoping that in my pathetic existence I leave some kind of mark.
So the point is, no matter what happens, no matter how terrible things are, this remains top priority I'm not going to back down, I'm not going to flinch, I'm going to walk straight into the freight train that is life and keep standing some how. DELIRIUM and BRIMSTONE are my keys to getting some where and they will not be half assed.
Sorry if that was just an annoying rant.
Oh, by the way, I started this to tell you I have a teaser image for BRIMSTONE.
Hope you like that.
So yeah, I'll go on dealing with my white people problems and try to just shut up and get things done.
I'll update you again when I have something to say.
-Tyler W. Moore